when it comes to school, where i live, my relationship status, my depression.
i honestly don't feel like i have the worth to make zachary stay with me.
you can kind of tell he agrees.
i don't know if this is going to be one of those relationships he looks back on and thinks, 'i miss her.'
i'm not good at this whole dating thing.
i'm afraid of them, for starters.
quoting a7x, 'our love has been so strong for far too long, i was weak with fear that something would go wrong'
maybe i won't kill him and rape his corpse like in the song, but we'll see.
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i'm not happy with myself, i'm not happy with anything.
i'm sick of food and i hate eating.
i hate sleeping.
i can't.
yesterday. was good.
i wasn't home hehe.
instead, i played with justin, went to walmart with him, rode in carts, ate candy, went to poker, galen and i observed our literally gay friends' mating rituals, went to climb a tree but ended up running all over the woods, staying out until 10 wrestling, climbing, fighting, and talking about everything, and ending while staring at the stars!!!
that was a good day, at least. they should happen more often.
but for this to happen, i have to be free.
like a bird!
