basic space.

John introduced me to The XX which is an amazing-mazing band.

Tomorrow is my 8 month with Tyler,

8 months in a wonderful row.

I'm very excited.
"That's a long time, especially in high school years..It's like, cat years.."

-Lillian White

hmhmmhpr. ♥

house.

I missed my shitty house.

tyler james.

Thanks for being you.

I love you. :(

I'm not very happy. I just want to go home and crawl in bed and wait until I get to go to school for in-school suspension.

These days have been some of the worst of my life.

I just can't feel good about myself and I don't know why

I wish you would just listen or pretend to care.

you lost it all.

That awkward moment when your ex-boyfriend sends you a 9429412 page letter.

Sigh.

from beyond.

Really?

You're disappointed?

There is NO REASON FOR THAT.

I've done nothing but try to be the best for you.

Please, appreciate me?

Or..something?

why did you go there?

At my mom's.

Thursday: went out to eat with Tyler and my mom, they met each other and that was a success, I believe. Headed north and went shopping and drank some more caffeine (please stop me)
Friday: Track meet! It rained all day, I went home and took a bubble bath ♥

Saturday: Oh...Today..Okay..I woke up and was really lazy and then we went to go see Kung fu Panda 2!

Then Tyler called me "Katie"

I don't think we're that comfortable with each other.

blame it on my A.D.D.

I make bad choices.

Eating hot cheetos, ow.

Drinking some monster afterwards, OW.

Deciding to chew some gum afterwards, FUCKCUFFNGGOWWWWW

My tongue hates me, I can't even focus it hurts so bad, I'm droolingge gaegvyrwgerre

Okay. The purpose of THIS blog entry is to re-evaluate what the hell's going on in my life right now.

I've just downed my second energy drink and it's the first time I've had a full one since that one night I was trying to stay up really late but had to go to school anyway and it was just a failed mission.

When I have so much caffeine in my system I feel like I can do anything. I like that feeling. Not gonna lie, I'm typing at about one hundred and a fuckton words per minute, I want to draw, I want to shit, I dunno, join choir.

I finally wake up and get to experience the old Kay-tee once more, someone who has faded into the background of the daily fatigue I endure for some reason on a very obnoxious basis

and I am so happy, so so so happy, right now and I'm pretty sure always I am happy. How could it be any different than right now? Right now is real and right now is happy. I could talk and talk and talk for days on end and I don't care. I just need someone to be willing to listen.

Actually no, I have a bunch of people who listen and would enjoy to listen but I just..uhhh..Don't want to inconvenience them with words. A bunch of words. I'm going to go take a speed typing test right now brb, blog

I got 113 but because of my mistakes it's a comfy 109.

I can deal with that.

I don't care!

I took the test about astronauts...

HAHAHAHA

Did you know it was derived from the Greek words meaning "stars" and "sailor"?

That's wonderful, that's truly inspiring.

I'm off~

nothing new.

I can't wait until tomorrow after school.

My mom gets to meet Tyler, and then I'm going up to her house for the 4 day weekend.

I'll be back on Monday, though :)

I'm home alone for now.

Well..

Ashlyn just left.

Last night was easily the most confusing and weird night of my life.

The weirdest part though, is that I'm okay with it.

...

:)

budget cuts.

The seven-class schedule was okay with me.

I can DEAL with that next year.

But...take away Moody?

That's not okay with me.

She was the best art teacher, ever.

I don't even want to bother with another art class.

D:

When she started crying after giving us the news, I started crying too!!

I just...

nmhph.

no.

anything at all.

Maybe I should get used to the fact that I CANNOT PAINT

cheez-it.

Today was great.

I'm so tired.

Tyler's hair looks so good..

I am dating the most adourable person.

Not gonna lie.

du bist fantastisch!

Seriously, seriously, seriously,

why do I care about you so much?

You're wonderful and handsome and make me happy.

You're also intelligent and I want to talk to you until the sun rises.

Can we do that?

Summer plans?

Wonderful.

things I don't remember.

Things I don't remember things I don't remember things I don't remember things I DON'T!!!!

This song's catchy.

Tyler is coming over yet again today, after 4. He called me at 10 and I told him to go back to sleep ☺

So...I guess...yesterday was incredible.

Tyler and I hung out until 7ish! I cut his hair, and it looks great, I'm quite proud of my improved skills.

I can't wait until the day...happens.

I'm going to go buy some caffeine so I can stay awake.

Limeberry and hot tubbing yesterday, and Tyler and Austen showed up.

It was fantastic.

:D

Im too happy for words

Bye~

new post.

Samson - Regina Spektor

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread
And went right back to bed
And the history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us
Not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and
Came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me till the morning light
The morning light
And kissed me till the morning light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread
And went right back to bed
Oh we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And the history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us
Not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

I'm pretty excited for today. Tyler's coming over.

Yesterday, Brandon, Justin, and his cousin Tyler and I hung out.

We went to the park, I cut Justin's hair, we went to Winco, my house, blah blah etc. It was all pretty fun.
I went home and called Tyler and fell asleep happy. ♥

Waiting, waiting, waiting.

everyone knows you.

I'm at home sick and pathetic. I've went through about twenty tissues and I've only been awake for fifty minutes. Yesterday was pretty phenomenal. I went to Tyler's house after school, after hanging out with Austen and Adam at Roth's for a while. I watched him eat chicken strips and then we walked home. We watched Black Swan, cuddled, and he even let me trim his hair. I got sick though, after only cutting the bottom half, (it looked great regardless) and had to go home. I took some Advil and made sure not to kiss Tyler too much because I'd get everyone sick and it'd be a cesspool of germs.

I'm not going to bother taking a daily picture, but I'll put one ...here....maybe...if I find...something.

male population.

Gross.

Gross.

GROSS.

Not all females are attractive

JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE BREASTS AND MASTURBATE PUBLICLY

gross

let me love you.

I'm so bored of everything.

You, him, her, everyone.

Especially her.

I'm going to Washington today, for mother's day.

I'm excited to get out of....the house.

Last night, Andrew and I talked about Tyler and homecoming and boobs and it was a pretty good conversation.

Then he mentioned liking me in Science last year, and then again the beginning of this year.

That's cool. I like crushes, I mean.

They're flattering.

But he said he was much happier knowing I was with Tyler, because we're "perfect for each other."

:)

Thanks, Andrew!!!

I agree!

insert title here

I have tried to start this blog so many times, so many fucking times, I can't even...What's on my mind? I'm thinking about Tyler and California and roller coasters and Tyler and Tyler and Tyler and food and soda and grass and Tyler and Mackenzie Layne and jealousy and love and honesty and phone calls and conversations about important stuff and Cat Frink and Dexter

Deodorant
Odorant?

Playing cards

half empty glasses

lost my glasses

movie theater

convenient store

hunger

highlighters

ulcers

eye drops

gum drops

raspberry candies on top of the microwave

the microwave

cell phone

texting Tyler

Tyler

3DS

why do I have a 3DS

laundry

gotta do laundry

chores

dishes

flowers

Tyler's black v neck and leather jacket

warm and tiny huggable people

people who are too tall to hug

how i hugged john early october

then i hugged Tyler

Tylers arms were happier

so much happier

better

lovelier

warmer

tinier.

tall people.

tote bags.

under-the-bed messes

in-the-closet regrets

regrets.

regrets.

you.

even flow.

Nothing new is happening. I wonder what people say at their counseling sessions..

last time I went I talked about happy things.

I don't even think I have problems.

I just cry at the wrong times.

I certainly don't need anyone to talk to.

Anyone ELSE, that is.

I was walking home and spit my gum out and I want to see how long it's gonna there.

I didn't know it was a Pearl Jam type day until I played some Pearl Jam.

I, I, I, I, I.

I'd be a shitty narrator.

Jeeze, uh, my actual debate is tomorrow.

I've been psyching myself out for about a week, it's time to put it to good(?) use.

want to live.

7 month-a-versary.

ECSTATIC

Everything turned out better than I could of imagined.

Plus, I fixed my speakers.

So fucking happy

SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!