i got to hang out with eric, nathan, and ashlyn.
which is always fun.
we captured a chicken at woodmansee,
killed it,
cleaned it,
boiled it and we now have a broth, etc for our chicken and dumplings tomorrow.
eww.
got yelled at from zach again.
eric and ashlyn decided to give me their opinions on our relationship.
do i want to be 'treated like that'? i think i'm treated just fine.
i wish people didnt see zach as a mean person.
well, he can be, when i give him reasons to be.
but at the same time, i don't want everyone knowing how much of a bitch i am.
maybe it's fair.
am i giving up? no. i just don't really see the point in going on, this is like chewing gum with no flavour
i don't know why it's so hard to say this to zachary,
even though he reads this.
i'm deathly afraid of him.
(BRB ASPIRIN)
okay
i also took nyquil
im not even sick but i'm also not tired
so
umm
idk.
why does it seem so...easy for everyone to be like "yep, dump him, move on, it's okay"
when im being shallow and like "NO! I LOVE HIM AND SHUT UP BECAUSE I DONT WANT HIM TO DATE PRETTIER WOMEN WAHH"
that...that's pretty true.
the point of all this:
i'm afraid of zachary moving on, dating other people and realizing that he was missing nothing; except for a year of his life.
