nippy.

Hanging out with Kim.

Having great days with Tyler.
Grades are improving.

Social life is good.

Everything's getting better.

It's just so, so, cold...

going through changes.

Today is homecoming.

i've got a new complaint.

I strongly suggest never swallow Listerine.

Make sure you floss when you can.

Don't ignore anybody.

Text back everyone who texts you.

Initiate conversation.

Restock the bathroom towel and toilet paper supply.

Wipe your feet on a mat, if possible in someone else's house.

Don't write on people if you don't expect being written on aswell.

Don't expect people to pay for you when you're out of money.

Be polite.

Don't be condescending.

Take naps often.

Draw.

Keep a journal.

Live and let die.

mope.

I've been sitting around the house doing nothing, all day.

Checked the mail in the rain, nothing there.

Did my hair post-shower, no one saw it.

I'm missing my sister.

Made some dollar bill origami stuff.

Went to the mall, got perfume. Went to Jamba Juice, got a smoothie.

Went home, went to Winco with Justin.
Came back.

Gonna go write in my journal and sleep.

life's about filmstars.

Last night. Oh, my godgodgodgodgod.

Shit got real. REAL quick.

It started off good, after school we all headed over to Schirle and then to Roth's and then Tyler's house, after Nathan and Tyler both wore my hair extensions. Then after we sat around at Tyler's we decided we could be the cast of that 70's show!

Tyler: Eric

Kt: Donna

Nathan: Hyde

John: Kelso

Mackenzie: Jackie

Alex: Fez

So far, a pretty good day. We headed to the game, me, mack and tyler shoved in the back, the rest in the front. We spit some mad beats, and we all flocked from the car, and after we got in we stood around and socialized. Kinda.

We dipped early, were hanging out on the baseball field, when I got a call from Zach to come back to the game, now, and John Larson was telling him about something I did.

So I got there, and there were about 20 people, 10 who wanted to kill John Larson and 10 wanting to back him up. I was somewhere in the middle. I was yelled at from Zach just a bunch of questions, he got really close to my face and euurrggggh. I didn't know what to do. Everyone was staring, now, and it felt really awful. Mr. Farmer got involved, and I started bawling, and tried going up the stairs but I failed. I just sat there and was getting hugs from random people I didn't even know. That made everything a little worse, and I went out to find John and Tyler waiting for me in front of the stadium...and oh god.

We went back to Tyler's, I laid there and cried for like 30 minutes and texted John again and again trying to apologize. I got home around 12am.

Woke up this morning, my apology to Zach wasn't good enough.

So here it goes again.

I wish life was easy D:

stride.

I got really bored with nothing to do at 9:30 at night.

Just got home from Tyler's, and we ate tacos, watched top gun, world of jenks, and overall had a fabulous time.

But, why must happiness be such a selfish thing? I know people are disappointed at me, pissed off, maybe even disgusted. I might even be making a huge mistake, I'll regret it all maybe in a day, a week, month, or maybe two years...

I need to learn to move on, realize everything gets better..He can't hate me for too long, can he?

How can people still tell me, 'who cares'?

Obviously, I do..

Time to go to bed, time to dream of an awesome world where everyone's happy and the past no longer is thought of~

why do men have nipples?

I'm sick of this blog business.

I have a journal, and I can actually..put real life thoughts in it, and I don't have to edit anything, and I just want to draw in it too.

Plus anyone can read this nonsense.

So, goodbye.

Only, I'll be back.

prologue.

I need to get out of this place!

I'm super hungry, sick of high school drama, I just want to have a good day, every day. Is that so hard?

I guess it's self induced, part of it.

10% of life is what happens to you,

90% is how you react to it.

Blah, blah, blah.

admit one.

if we'd only stayed together,

we might not of fallen apart

but the words you said destroyed my planet

i'll stall before I start

i'll stall before I start anything at all.

I hate Motion City Soundtrack but they've been on my iPod for the longest time.

I should be getting ready for school.

But, my sunday was good.

Saw John Larson and Tyler James, and John had gotten a fabulous new longboard.

Blawwrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh

I'm tired, I guess.

Wishing my mood was better.

But today is an A day, which means I can sleep. :D

crushed.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

recovery, final part.

Most, definitely.
After school, Tyler, John, Mackenzie, Nathan, Alex, and Jamie all walked to Roth's, and got picked up by Tyler's mom to go to Northern Lights. On the way there he put his arm around me and that was just like....oh god. We were wearing the same sweatshirt and I tied the strings together. Dunno why. I still can't stop smiling. We watched "Salt" and ate ice cream. Peanut butter mountain to be exact. I think I fell in love with Tyler's eyes. The amount of blue-ness is just..impressive. They were more interesting than the movie. But I digress!!!!
We got dropped off at Liberty school and played on the park.
Tyler asked me to homecoming, so I agreed, and he kissed me. Then I kissed him. And we kissed again, and again, and again. ♥ I didn't even think he liked me so i was like wtftftfttftftTFFTF my heart wouldn't even begin to slow down and I was so very happy to know he liked me, too.
Then we went to Roth's, got about eight pounds of candy for 3 dollars, went to Tyler's and we laid together in his bed and did this cute thing where we'd ask each other questions and kiss after we answered them. During all this, Alex played piano and we watched cops or something, and it was a lovely day. Tyler is absolutely amazing. I can't wait to get to know him even more ♥
If my days went like this, every single day, with people who are super easy to talk to, and laugh with, and if days were that exact temperature, it'd be lovely.
Anyway, thank god it's the weekend. I think I'll see Tyler again today. I left my stuff in his mom's car.
BBBbbhhhhaaauurrgh. I woke up too early, and I think I wanna go back to sleep...
~
That was an amazing shower. Not gonna lie. It lasted about an hour, but also an hour too soon. I'm in love with October already.